| Wednesday, December 27, 2006 |
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now there's another thing im depressing over... wats your feeling when you know that your composition writing for english is like damn sux and until now that you realise that isnt the vocab problem... is your idea that isnt even up to primary standard...? im the one who felt that bad feeling now... ok... after knowing that, you will start to think... the reality is already harsh enough in this world and having the main language the worst subject isnt that similar to death? and even if your chinese is gd... it isnt the standard of gd to the other like in this multi racial country and other chinese countries... next...wat will your future be?... one word: bleak... and then knowing that you are an anti social person... your mum is considering an one-to-one tutouring... ok... my feelings are mixed... it's a person that might help you and change your life... improving something you had wished for... at the same time im a very sensitive person... the other time just getting a very bad remark from an english teacher i totally lost control and cry in the public... not a very bad one... and wearing my sch uniform... to take a person's solding to me is like i need to cry... and i dun cry in front of anybody unless i caouldnt control it... i know im a coward but who to help me? im lost.. lost in my foolish thoughts... but for sure i need to be is more and very hardworking from now... no slacking... more "absorbant" in learning... hope i can be one... causee i always cant fufil my own promises and expectations... im totally a useless freak!!! :'( -this is the true inner me- |